I feel good.. i feel DAMN good... But there's a problem... A problem I can’t ignore... I always told myself I wouldn't do what my dad did to
me when I was growing up, I promised if I had a kid - a son - I would be there for him while he grew up no matter what the cost... and I
have tried I have tried my damn best but where do I draw the line, when is enough enough... I'm tired of the fighting... I'm tired of the
Immaturity level she has - so damn tired... I work too damn hard every day not to be happy, I think I deserve to be happy.. People look at
me sometimes and think I have everything.. my friend told me he wishes he had things like me but what is all of my material bullshit
worth if there’s no love in my life... I honestly can’t even remember what it's like to be -in-love- it's been many many years since I felt that
and I forgot what it’s like... I want to be in love again, none of this matters when I'm not even happy...
Am I making excuses?? Am I trying to make shit up so I won’t feel guilty for giving up on my son?? I’m not giving up on my son… I gave
up on his mother- she’s never going to change, I hoped maybe because she was young she would grow out of it and become more
Responsible and be an adult - i was wrong.... so damn wrong...
I love my son – every time i look at him he brings a smile to my face hes gorgeous and I know shes going to keep him from me... but I
can’t keep living like this... something’s got to change I can’t stay with this chick she’s driving me fucking nuts and I just want to be
Happy..
I'm sorry son - hopefully when your older you will understand... but I can’t stay with this girl anymore - it’s time for me to move on... I'm
Moving on... fuck that!
;DonnY



